Today is my 25th birthday.
It’s amazing how fast time can go. Yes, it is a cliche thing to say and I know all of you older out there than me are screaming at the screen saying “if I was your age again…”. I know I am still young and have a whole life ahead of me. What I do want to share with you is how I feel about turning 25 and what that means to me.
I’m happy
If you asked me 4 hears ago when I was 21 where I thought I would be today, never in a million years did I think this is where I would be. I was depressed, weight was fluctuating (at 21 I was a little too thin and before that I gained weight), anxious, unsure of myself, low self esteem and had no idea what it meant to be happy. I can’t say today that everything above has been magically fixed and I’m this perfect person now. Because, believe me, I am not and honestly no one is. But, the people that I have in my life now are helping me get there little by little. And, I am getting myself there too. Always remember that you have to count and believe in yourself first before anyone else can. I feel like I am starting to come into my own and figuring out who I am and who I want to be.
I’m married
If you also told me at 21 that I would be married for almost a year when I was 25 I would have probably thought you were crazy. Love, true love, happens when you least expect it. I know, I’m full of cliches and sappines today- it’s my birthday, cut me some slack. But Chad, my husband, came into my life when I least expected him to and when I wanted him to. He was supposed to be a rebound date! Lol. But, he ended up stealing my heart instead. He continues to amaze me with his patience when I’m getting ready or when I’m acting like literally pschyco person or when I get fusterated with something small. He always continues to love me. Marriage is not perfect and I don’t want ours to be perfect. I want it to be us; with my craziness and all. Sorry Chad, that’s never going away!
I’m healthy(er)
Yes, things are staying exactly the way they used to and are getting harder to stay there. “It comes with age” you all are probably thinking. Well, to be honest I don’t love everything about my body still. What I do love is that from hard work and encouragement from friends, Chad and my workout companions I’m getting there and being healthier. Don’t get me wrong you will absolutely still see me digging into some chips (my kryptonite) and having some ice cream. But, exercising (more specifically) kickboxing has changed my life. I’ll be doing a more details post on that soon! What is important is that the habits and routines I am doing now will stick with me for the rest of my life.
I’m scared
One of the first questions you get after being married is – say it with me ladies– “so when are you starting to have kids?”. Let’s all do an eye roll together, shall we? I love that people are interested in my life and our future together, don’t get me wrong. But, that is simply a question I can’t answer for you. Having children is something we want and I want but it makes me kind of freak out on the inside. I can barely take care of myself some days much less a small human. I can’t tell you what the future holds. If I could I would probably be less of an anxious crazy person. But, to me, life is such a vast unknown that it does scares me. What the next 5/10/15 years and on hold in the cards is something I am excited to experience and discover. My goals for the years ahead are a bit more solidifiable like – create a business, travel and make sure to make time for myself!
I’m grateful
Being able to write and have a creative outlet to share with you has been a challenge and a dream. It’s not easy to create and formulate ideas and write about them. Its not easy setting time aside to get content done. I’m literally writing this post at midnight because I just came up with this idea to share with you! But it has been a dream to let my ideas flow and form and be something tangible. I’m grateful that I get to share them all with you!
Thank you for all of the love and support you have shown me so far with this blog. Here’s to another 25.
Cheers!
